i know you all think this maybe be dumb ,but I am gonna post it anyhow. The reason why I'm posting it on here is because you all know me more than anyone & if you have something bad to say about me , you can let her know!! Also I dont know where else she would see it!! It all started along time ago with us , I was at the bar & hot blonde with beautiful eyes & smile , wearing a baseball cap <somehow lost my cap that nite& wasn;t even a trade-off> dont recall exactly how long after that , this girl was following me around in her car, & we decided to talk & meet each other. Since then we have been together & have had some Really good times ,no details!!! met her son , who is a great kid!! Well I am going thru some hard times & she also has ( her father passed away) which was really tough on her ! I don't know tonite just seemed special, she stopped by just to let me know what was going on , that her boy had the flu & all , but on her errands , thought of me !! I finished the heat race I was runnin & excused myself from the race & we ended up going grocery shopping for me & then she took me back home ! I got my bags out & to the door & we sat in car for lil bit , she had to get going back home for her son that is sick. Althou her mind was set towards the backseat & mine was thinkin I just put two bags of food inside door & my dogs came down & last two days all I had to eat was popcorn & water ...lol. My dogs seem to think they eat with me !!
Anyhow I told her I loved her & of course she's like I love u 2 , usually it's her saying it 1st , & told her thank u for runnin me to the store , woulda been like five trips on bike or unless like BW said pull ya a lil red wagon with ya squirrel , screw that I said i bungeed dam grocery cart behind me once but that sucked!!
Guess the main reason I"m writing this on here, is sometimes I dont think she really knows how I feel & this way if i wrote this down on paper , she cant rip it up or if she did write me a note & ripped it up b4 i even saw it !! She would do anything for me that she could & I mean anything !! I just wish I could do more for her in the situation I am in right now !!
HEIDI ...I love ya with all my heart , you mean alot to me & YES hopefully someday soon , we can be husband & wife , I want to be able to do more for you,then what I am doing at the moment!! Just stick with me & believe, it can only get better, I know it will somehow !! I know GOD is working with me somehow , not sure how but just know HE is ,I'd probably be dead if it wasn't for HIM lookin after my dumba$$. love ya honey